美剧《亢奋特别篇（2020）》第一季第一集Part1-中英文对照台词(6)

说真的 如果... 如果我说了什么黑暗的东西
you"re not gonna report me to the state or something?
你不会举报我什么的吧
Uh, Rue, I"m not a guidance counselor.
鲁 我不是指导顾问
I"m just a crackhead who"s trying to do
我就是个瘾君子
a little good on this Earth before I die.
想着在我死前做点好事
Uh, you"re, you"re a trip, man.
你真有意思
What were you gonna say?
你想说什么
It doesn"t matter. It"s stupid. All right, I"m sorry. Come on.
不重要 都是蠢话 好吧 对不起 说吧
What were you gonna say? Say it. Nah. I don"t wanna...
你想说什么就说吧 不 我不想...
Say it.
说吧
When I"m, uh, when I"m clean, you know,
当我 戒毒的时候
when I"m present, uh, like a part of this world,
当我活在当下 是世界的一份子的时候
I don"t just think about relapsing.
我不只会想到复吸
It"s, uh, it"s darker than that.
我想得比那更黑暗
And, uh, you can say that sobriety is my, uh,
你大可以说清醒是我
greatest weapon, but...
最强大的武器 但...
To tell you the truth, drugs are probably
实话跟你说 嗑药可能是
the only reason I haven"t killed myself.
我还没自杀的唯一原因