“读懂中国”主题演讲|马布里：从NBA到CBA，中国文化哲学如何影响了我(7)

I was known and well respected around the country even before I became a teenager. At 12 years old, a top American sports magazine ranked me the best sixth grader in the nation. Out of all the millions of sixth graders in America and in many parts of the world, I was declared the best basketball player. So, at the tender age of 12, I believed I was the best and I always believed I would win! If my 19-year-old self were talking to you today, I would say I play basketball because I love the game. In retrospect, I realize I was not driven by my love for the game but my will to win, to gain praise and recognition and to get my family out of Coney Island.
我获得的名望和赞誉开始宠坏我，作为一名顶级篮球明星，我被聚光灯所蒙蔽，实际上我迷失了自己，我让一个八磅重的物体控制了我的生活，你们看，从来没有人教过我，如何在这种现实生活中成功，那时我还太年轻，没有意识到要想在篮球场上获胜，首先要培养和场外的关系，对胜利的执着吞噬了我，我被胜利冲昏了头脑，变得着迷于此，但是我越是想要赢球，尤其是在NBA，我发现自己离胜利越来越远，离我的队友也越来越远。最后我就像一箱水，撞到了一堵砖墙上一样“啪！”在这种状态下我不得不问自己，“我怎么了，我真的像他们说的那样是一只独狼吗？”我是不是天生如此难以与他人相处，包括我的队友？
Receiving fame and accolades began to spoil me. I became blinded by the limelight of being a top-ranked basketball star that I actually lost myself. I let an eight-pound object take control of my life. You see, no one had ever taught me how to succeed in this type of real-life situation. And I was too young to realize back then that winning on the basketball court requires one to first foster and cultivate relationships off the court. The fixation of winning consumed me. I was consumed so much by winning that I became obsessed with it. But, the more I tried to win, especially in the NBA, the further away from winning I found myself, and from my teammates. Eventually, I crashed like a tank of water and hit a brick wall. “Splat!”